🎵♍ autumn @MililaniVF@glitch.social

it turns out medical questionnaires are more expensive than i remember and the course that implied they would be paying weekly in fact pay uhhh bi-monthly. i accounted for what i thought was a realistic worst case scenario of waiting another month before i got paid.
i have enough money to cover me for the next week or so and despite my protests apparently i need it to stretch to the second week of august so if you wanna help out or boost i would appreciate it.
https://www.paypal.me/MililaniVF

*whispers* this isnt the actual truth, there are actual real reasons, please stop trying to explain them to me especially when yr all wrong.

fwiw when i say accounting for a worse case scenario i mean "in the entire process of pursuing this teaching thing i've been going without hrt and living a near minimum existence for over 8 months and my mental health has gone from bad to worse as a result" i'm doing my best lol

it turns out medical questionnaires are more expensive than i remember and the course that implied they would be paying weekly in fact pay uhhh bi-monthly. i accounted for what i thought was a realistic worst case scenario of waiting another month before i got paid.
i have enough money to cover me for the next week or so and despite my protests apparently i need it to stretch to the second week of august so if you wanna help out or boost i would appreciate it.
https://www.paypal.me/MililaniVF

(obviously wolfram alpha is google as a calculator but better)

why can't calculators just let you enter problems in the same way you would write them like ffs.

google is literally the best calculator

most common question asked in a maths classroom: "why do we have to do this why can't we just use a calculator"

blatant lie told to every pupil since like 1980: "you won't always have a calculator available"

actual truth: "calculators are devil objects, none of them work the same, you'll only really be acquainted with how exactly one of them works across your lifetime and when it comes time to use it again you'll have forgotten how it works anyway"

wait i thought mccree and genji were lazy designs but they did tiny gremlin in a big robot -again-?

*draws a straight line on the graph*

i'm the fuckin sherlock holmes of mathematics

"investigate the relationship between the turning point of the first derivative and the point where the second derivative crosses the x-axis"

i... what do you mean investigate it, the x ordinates are the same, obviously, that's, that's why we're even bothering with the second derivative in the first place

person behind me to their child: get in the queue behind that lady
me: *biting tongue to resist turning around and snapping "how dare you misgender me by suggesting i am in any way shape or form tangentially proximal to the aristocracy"

if i want to build and maintain some semblance of pen control could i just get away with buying a colouring book or do i have to suck it up and just write things down sometimes?
Taking "i'm too creatively bankrupt to draw things from scratch" as a given

this is the best manga ever written

finally,
The Proverbial Good Boy

THEY EXIST

"you have considered this task from the perspective of yourself learning, a struggling pupil, and a disruptive pupil, you may have noticed some similarities"

i'm being called out by a pre-recorded voice

it is disturbing how much i normalized that experience that i just forget to acknowledge it as a thing

ok no the best thing about the new place is that it's not a mold infested hellhole that's slowly killing me, obviously.

also if i throw away anything incriminating it's less likely to be pinpointed to being from exactly me i guess?

this is the closest i've been to the experience of 'luxury' i think

tfw the best thing about living in yr new place is you don't have your own bin.
so instead of "you have a Designated Time and Day trash must be taken out and we only come every two weeks but if you have more than you can cram into the box then fuck you" i can take shit out at my leisure, not worry about not being able to fit everything in, don't have to drag the thing out from the garden all the time and don't accumulate a backlog of boxes n shit i can't get rid of.